Feels like the sky to fall down on me.
Where shall I hide from Your presence, O Almighty.
Like a child I try to hide;
Like a loner I try to be alone;
Like a prisoner I leave myself locked in a dark and empty room;
Yet anywhere I see, I found Your face.
Now I am naked before You. I have nothing but shame.
How would this poor creature enter Your Holy presence without his filthy life;
How could I see Your shine without closing my face with my very dirty fingers.
I shout for the freedom from this agony and shame. But the freedom has no answer.
I screamed to my pillow cursing myself at nights. Though I know those all will never be enough to allow myself coming to You; You are too holy to be approached.
I am too small, even a shame to You, O my Creator. O You, the Saviour of my soul, You seemed too far away from me today. Will I ever come to You without Your hands reaching onto me?
Look at me, but don't look straight, peep my heart. Its filled with uselessness; I have lost all my pride. Have mercy on me! Have mercy on me!
I came to You now, with my shaky knees, covered with my shameful look.
I am calling to You, O my Shelter, to hide me behind Your rock.
Forgive me and let me sit still. I just want to feel You. I know I never deserve a good place at Your home. If I cannot come to your place, I beg You to allow me to just look at it for a while; then that shall be more than sufficient for me.
I shall lay my life and trust into You; grant me enough strength to stand always on your track. Now and forever, let this always be my songs, in rememberance of my weaknesses.
To You, God, I sing this song of Apology.
