I clearly remember that it was about an hour and thirty minutes after I returned from a long lunch out of the office. Everyone was busy at their cubicle ; typing, calling or answering phones, chatting with their neighbors, or simply staring at the monitor (as some of them are finance persons… doing what they called as reconciliation some numbers for sure). And me, I was answering some e-mails I needed to answer the morning before. While drinking my 4th glass of water for the day.
Then suddenly someone yelled, ‘its shaking, it s shaking…” while at the same time she rushed to the exit door, followed by all the staff. I stood up and can really feel that the 4th floor of that Research Institute was a bit shaking. It felt like you are standing in a cable car while the car was about to go. You can feel it slightly like you can’t trust the floor you have been standing and working for all these months and weeks. Then I realize that that was it. On my way following the crowd I can barely see the water in the dispenser make a wave-liked movement. And the walk I did was not steady until I reached the door to the exit and rushed outside.
Out there, everyone is already crowded in awe. Looking up to the sky and every corner of the outside building, wondering what will happen next. Half of the more than 100 people there were making phone calls. Some do the talk, some showing frustrating face knowing that there’s no connection.
That was my first real life earth quake experience since I was born. Boy… I must say that it was not fun at all.
Then today, when I put this article in the text, I can vividly recall what I had weeks ago when a friend of mine unofficially ‘announce’ her resignation plan. Though I am a calm type of person, in which from my face you won’t see anything change, yet within me I felt like standing on the floor which is shaking. After months of ‘being’ with her in all the moments; travelling, events, meetings, and sharing ideas, world knows that the time tells it all. All through the time I learned a lot. I experience many. I had it impartially.
Well, life is about coming and going. One goes, other comes. Change happens every time. I learn that to stay up is to adjust yourself to the ever changing life.
Jakarta, 3 September 2009
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Headache, oh headache
It was actually not a big surprise knowing that tension headaches are the most common type of primary headache. It is said that as many as 90% of adults have had or will have tension headaches. Tension headaches are more common among women than men.
That’s what the doctor told me a while ago after a special session I had at the clinic with a neurologist. I felt like a hopeless patient when she did a through check to all my nerve function. I honestly feel like saying, ‘No doc, I am actually ok, please don’t treat me like a patient”. But I know she has to do her job.
Knowing that its my fourth day having this headache, she asked like do you feel tension at your neck? Did you vomiting? Do you experience any high blood pressure before? Do you feel any numbness around your cheek? Do you feel nausea? I feel sorry to her that all the questions she asked was replied by one word, ‘no’, which is good for me and her. From her explanation, she told me that there are so many people suffer from headaches, and because treatment is sometimes difficult, there is a new classification system that allows health care practitioners to understand a specific diagnosis more completely to provide better and more effective treatment regimens. Nowadays they classified headaches into primary headaches, Secondary and cranial neuralgia which then including facial pain and other headaches. Secondary headaches are those that are due to an underlying structural problem in the head or neck. There are numerous causes of this type of headache ranging from bleeding in the brain, tumor, or (these are the most horrible ones) meningitis and encephalitis. When she mentioned vocabularies like migraine, blood pressure, nerve imbalance, and tumor… gee I couldn’t imagine how on earth do I ever get those symptom to hit me.
After about 15 minutes in her room, what’s the diagnose? To my surprise she said that I am actually ok. I just need to sleep and wake up at regular times. And, this is the most impossible one, to reduce tension during work hours and some others. I was prescribed three regiments of medicine. She told me to come back three days later if the medicine don’t do any tricks.
Well, I hope that what I really need is a good weekend and relax days. But for the next 4 days to go, I sure have lots to do. Oh headache… if we can ever stand on our own sides without disturbing to each other.
Jakarta, 25 August 2009.
That’s what the doctor told me a while ago after a special session I had at the clinic with a neurologist. I felt like a hopeless patient when she did a through check to all my nerve function. I honestly feel like saying, ‘No doc, I am actually ok, please don’t treat me like a patient”. But I know she has to do her job.
Knowing that its my fourth day having this headache, she asked like do you feel tension at your neck? Did you vomiting? Do you experience any high blood pressure before? Do you feel any numbness around your cheek? Do you feel nausea? I feel sorry to her that all the questions she asked was replied by one word, ‘no’, which is good for me and her. From her explanation, she told me that there are so many people suffer from headaches, and because treatment is sometimes difficult, there is a new classification system that allows health care practitioners to understand a specific diagnosis more completely to provide better and more effective treatment regimens. Nowadays they classified headaches into primary headaches, Secondary and cranial neuralgia which then including facial pain and other headaches. Secondary headaches are those that are due to an underlying structural problem in the head or neck. There are numerous causes of this type of headache ranging from bleeding in the brain, tumor, or (these are the most horrible ones) meningitis and encephalitis. When she mentioned vocabularies like migraine, blood pressure, nerve imbalance, and tumor… gee I couldn’t imagine how on earth do I ever get those symptom to hit me.
After about 15 minutes in her room, what’s the diagnose? To my surprise she said that I am actually ok. I just need to sleep and wake up at regular times. And, this is the most impossible one, to reduce tension during work hours and some others. I was prescribed three regiments of medicine. She told me to come back three days later if the medicine don’t do any tricks.
Well, I hope that what I really need is a good weekend and relax days. But for the next 4 days to go, I sure have lots to do. Oh headache… if we can ever stand on our own sides without disturbing to each other.
Jakarta, 25 August 2009.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
You are for a reason
If you choose the same belief as I do, you will surely understand when I say that its not a coincidence why you are in the present state of life. Then we can come to the next statement that every single thing happens for a reason. And the reasons I mean here is that when we choose to obey then we will find out the reasons unfailing itself for us.
I am proud to say that my life happens for one reason. For sure the reason is to glorify HIM in and through me and to make a difference in others’ life. Just like the hardship and hard edges of Israelites when they were travelling the desert to the promised land, its all to the glory of His name, the ultimate owner of life.
I belief that the best decision I ever made in life is to choose to commit to follow HIM. I follow Him not because I choose to, rather because He called me. Not because I am fulfilling the status He wanted me to, yet due to His grace to me.
A new life essentially begins when you know what are you here for! This is well stated in Rick Warren’s book The Purpose Driven Life which I have read three times already and just finished reading for the 4th time just last week. The beginning of real life is the moment when you realize that you are here not for your personal goal, but to obey HIM who put and created you and choose this time to let you live this life now and here. He could have put you to live 5o years back, or 100 years from now. But because He knows who you are and what you are here for, so He choose to put you at this era.
A total change in life actually begins at the moment you realized that you are nothing, and that you are – because HE is.
Isn’t it amazing knowing that you are special? If you ever feel like useless, hopeless, and nuisance to others, believe me that God never counted you so. He chooses you simply because He has planned you for a specific function. Once you realise this, you are starting your own new life; for Him.
Jakarta, mid of August 2009
I am proud to say that my life happens for one reason. For sure the reason is to glorify HIM in and through me and to make a difference in others’ life. Just like the hardship and hard edges of Israelites when they were travelling the desert to the promised land, its all to the glory of His name, the ultimate owner of life.
I belief that the best decision I ever made in life is to choose to commit to follow HIM. I follow Him not because I choose to, rather because He called me. Not because I am fulfilling the status He wanted me to, yet due to His grace to me.
A new life essentially begins when you know what are you here for! This is well stated in Rick Warren’s book The Purpose Driven Life which I have read three times already and just finished reading for the 4th time just last week. The beginning of real life is the moment when you realize that you are here not for your personal goal, but to obey HIM who put and created you and choose this time to let you live this life now and here. He could have put you to live 5o years back, or 100 years from now. But because He knows who you are and what you are here for, so He choose to put you at this era.
A total change in life actually begins at the moment you realized that you are nothing, and that you are – because HE is.
Isn’t it amazing knowing that you are special? If you ever feel like useless, hopeless, and nuisance to others, believe me that God never counted you so. He chooses you simply because He has planned you for a specific function. Once you realise this, you are starting your own new life; for Him.
Jakarta, mid of August 2009
Friday, July 17, 2009
When Jakarta Shaking
I have just again have the same feeling; the feeling of disguise and hatred. Why? Its due to the incidence that happened at a luxurious restaurant of Ritz Charlton and at the left wing of the lobby of JW Marriot in Mega Kuningan Area, South Jakarta this morning.
The news is everywhere. From the web, TV live shows, radio, sms, facebook, twitter and all kinds of communications modes. Just two hours after the twin explosion that killed (at the moment I am writing this) 9 and wounded 50 others, my niece’s daughter sms-ed me whether or not her grand uncle is ok. Man, this sort of communication would never happen 5 years ago.
When I relate my feelings to what I read on the daily devotion this morning, now I realized why Anne Cetas was uniquely used by the Lord to deliver the devotion the way it is. The topic of the devotion was When the Ground Shaking, and it helps us to see with our clearest and pure heart that there’s a place to where we can always hold firmly when the ground is shaking. Jakarta is shaking this morning. It hits all corners of the city. It filled up the air and the feelings every Jakartans.
Shall you afraid? Are you creeping? Are you feeling unsure of your life amids this uncontrolled life on earth? Bambang Yulianto, one of the security of the hotels knows best what I am saying here. He was having his Friday off during the previous bomb at the same hotel 4 years ago. But today he is one of the wounded. Poor man.
Guys, here is what I hold from today’s devotion and news, “In my distress, I called upon the Lord”. —Psalm 18:6
When you fear of uncertainty, call upon HIM, the Lord of Abram, the Lord of Jacob and the Lord of David. I hold on to HIM as well. He is the only certain source of life’s security. None else does!
Jakarta, 17 July 2009
The news is everywhere. From the web, TV live shows, radio, sms, facebook, twitter and all kinds of communications modes. Just two hours after the twin explosion that killed (at the moment I am writing this) 9 and wounded 50 others, my niece’s daughter sms-ed me whether or not her grand uncle is ok. Man, this sort of communication would never happen 5 years ago.
When I relate my feelings to what I read on the daily devotion this morning, now I realized why Anne Cetas was uniquely used by the Lord to deliver the devotion the way it is. The topic of the devotion was When the Ground Shaking, and it helps us to see with our clearest and pure heart that there’s a place to where we can always hold firmly when the ground is shaking. Jakarta is shaking this morning. It hits all corners of the city. It filled up the air and the feelings every Jakartans.
Shall you afraid? Are you creeping? Are you feeling unsure of your life amids this uncontrolled life on earth? Bambang Yulianto, one of the security of the hotels knows best what I am saying here. He was having his Friday off during the previous bomb at the same hotel 4 years ago. But today he is one of the wounded. Poor man.
Guys, here is what I hold from today’s devotion and news, “In my distress, I called upon the Lord”. —Psalm 18:6
When you fear of uncertainty, call upon HIM, the Lord of Abram, the Lord of Jacob and the Lord of David. I hold on to HIM as well. He is the only certain source of life’s security. None else does!
Jakarta, 17 July 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
My Cough and Me
Its been a week since I had this. I thought that I (I mean my antibody) can handle it without medicine, but I was wrong. I went to the doctor 4 days ago and was given enough antitussive as well as antihistamin, and they helped a bit, yet its 50% still there.
Just for your notification, Wikipedia describes cough as ‘a sign of respiratory tract infections such as the common cold, pneumonia, pertussis, and tuberculosis’. But please, the last two were certainly not the types of my cough, ok? What I have now is what it is called usually as (and I actually saw what the doctor wrote on her note about my cough) an acute exacerbation of chronic obstructive pulmonary disease. It does sound terrible when you know what this mean. I have to admit that such terminology really disturbing me days and nights.
This cough now cost me a bit of uneasy to meet with people, just the work I am doing right now. I meet people and clients every day and I need a full fit as well as ‘no cough please?’ kind of situation. To tell you, its so disturbing when you talk to someone and suddenly you have to ‘excuse’ yourself just to cough!
Anyway, when this morning I updated myself with information about swine flu, I was shocked by the fact that the very first swine flu patient is positively hospitalized in Singapore, up on arrival from a long distance trip from USA. The patient spent couple of days in Mexico.
I promised myself to keep me at home during the weekend so that I can heal well. Besides, I can’t let my kids have my cough due to my carelessness.
Guys, I do hope you are having your great days without having what I have now.
Jakarta, end of May 2009.
Just for your notification, Wikipedia describes cough as ‘a sign of respiratory tract infections such as the common cold, pneumonia, pertussis, and tuberculosis’. But please, the last two were certainly not the types of my cough, ok? What I have now is what it is called usually as (and I actually saw what the doctor wrote on her note about my cough) an acute exacerbation of chronic obstructive pulmonary disease. It does sound terrible when you know what this mean. I have to admit that such terminology really disturbing me days and nights.
This cough now cost me a bit of uneasy to meet with people, just the work I am doing right now. I meet people and clients every day and I need a full fit as well as ‘no cough please?’ kind of situation. To tell you, its so disturbing when you talk to someone and suddenly you have to ‘excuse’ yourself just to cough!
Anyway, when this morning I updated myself with information about swine flu, I was shocked by the fact that the very first swine flu patient is positively hospitalized in Singapore, up on arrival from a long distance trip from USA. The patient spent couple of days in Mexico.
I promised myself to keep me at home during the weekend so that I can heal well. Besides, I can’t let my kids have my cough due to my carelessness.
Guys, I do hope you are having your great days without having what I have now.
Jakarta, end of May 2009.
Monday, April 27, 2009
What you Need to Know about Swine Flu
Dear friends,
How are you? Have you had any flu lately? For sure, at the day when I write this article, you are not having what's today's most printed and spoken out world wide known as swine flu. I wonder why in Indonesian we call it flu babi while its scientific indentification name is H1N1. Well, it is true that it comes from pig, yet its not fair to call it such name.
I am writing just to share what I have just read today from yahoo's health news about the endemic swine flu. For those who are interested to know and take a closer look at the flu and some update as per today, feel free to visit http://health.yahoo.com/news/ap/med_healthbeat_swine_flu_q_a.html
Take a reasonable look at it and behave as logic as possible, as to avoid panic into our community.
Have a healthy life.
Jakarta, 28 April 2009
How are you? Have you had any flu lately? For sure, at the day when I write this article, you are not having what's today's most printed and spoken out world wide known as swine flu. I wonder why in Indonesian we call it flu babi while its scientific indentification name is H1N1. Well, it is true that it comes from pig, yet its not fair to call it such name.
I am writing just to share what I have just read today from yahoo's health news about the endemic swine flu. For those who are interested to know and take a closer look at the flu and some update as per today, feel free to visit http://health.yahoo.com/news/ap/med_healthbeat_swine_flu_q_a.html
Take a reasonable look at it and behave as logic as possible, as to avoid panic into our community.
Have a healthy life.
Jakarta, 28 April 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Touching a Life
I find that its mostly difficult to accept the truth that is not always easy to be a blessing to the people around me. When was the last time you had a chance to touch someone’s heart that make him/her rethinking again about the purposes her/is life?
It happened to me just a few days ago when I visited an old lady with a ventilator to assist her breathing. All of you who are in medical field could imagine what I mean here. The ventilator is needed whenever your throat and lungs cannot really cooperate to each other anymore and one is needed in order to let the other functioned at its present's stages.
I mean, this was a taught lady with all her brave to face her lonely life. Literally she's got all points that make us down. Having no more husband, left by her closest first daughter years before due to brain cancer. On the other hands, she's got 12 children, all are now grown ups with their own families. Amidst all her aging life she still keen to face it all by herself. For years she passes through the days with no one helping her at her house even just to the dishes. Not to mention doing the washing, mopping the floor, making up her bed, and cleaning up her house, she does it all by herself.
How do I know this? Its her youngest son telling me proudly about her strong mother yet now lying on the bed struggling with the diseases.
I am honoured by the chance to meet such a strong and hard-headed woman. She reminds me of how a person like me supposed to have a strong believe and life's principles. She lives with all her strong life's principles that she doesn't need any help to do all the possible things she can handle. She is proud to do all small things with her own hands and refuse any assistance from maids offered by her children. She is a person who believes that all your hands and feet are prepared to make you move and possible doing all things you can do.
How many of us, sorry to say, are too reluctant to move ourselves doing households and small things like the old lady does. Most of the time we tend to ask and offer all our simple things to be done by others.
I vividly remember years ago when I and my wife decided to rise our children by ourselves. We know that there will be risks following. The risk of having less time for social activities because we need to spend more time at home rather than joining many club's activities. The risk of being with them during the weekend without being easy to go to some places we like. Nevertheless, what surprises us today is (its now almost 6 years since we made the decision) that there were so many things we could learn and unlearnt during all those time.
At least both of us knew how difficult it was and that now some of our character is visible to each of our kids. Now we see what does it mean by the words that say 'like father like son' (and its elaboratable to 'like mother like daughter') both in positive and negative sides.
Today, days after visiting the woman I mentioned earlier, her life's principles as told by the son, has marked its own line into mine, that I need to stand strongly to what I believe as a good and Godly principles to live my life. She, in her bed, touches a memorable mark to me.
The question now is, have you ever think that whatever you are doing now, it will make a mark into someone's life. Good or bad marks, others will decide.
Despite all this, I remember what David De Haan, the Director of RBC Ministry and the son of RBC's founder says below:
We don’t live unto ourselves
We’re part of one another
For good or ill we touch a life
Of sister, friend, and brother.
Make sure that all we do touch people's life amazingly.
Jakarta, April 2009
It happened to me just a few days ago when I visited an old lady with a ventilator to assist her breathing. All of you who are in medical field could imagine what I mean here. The ventilator is needed whenever your throat and lungs cannot really cooperate to each other anymore and one is needed in order to let the other functioned at its present's stages.
I mean, this was a taught lady with all her brave to face her lonely life. Literally she's got all points that make us down. Having no more husband, left by her closest first daughter years before due to brain cancer. On the other hands, she's got 12 children, all are now grown ups with their own families. Amidst all her aging life she still keen to face it all by herself. For years she passes through the days with no one helping her at her house even just to the dishes. Not to mention doing the washing, mopping the floor, making up her bed, and cleaning up her house, she does it all by herself.
How do I know this? Its her youngest son telling me proudly about her strong mother yet now lying on the bed struggling with the diseases.
I am honoured by the chance to meet such a strong and hard-headed woman. She reminds me of how a person like me supposed to have a strong believe and life's principles. She lives with all her strong life's principles that she doesn't need any help to do all the possible things she can handle. She is proud to do all small things with her own hands and refuse any assistance from maids offered by her children. She is a person who believes that all your hands and feet are prepared to make you move and possible doing all things you can do.
How many of us, sorry to say, are too reluctant to move ourselves doing households and small things like the old lady does. Most of the time we tend to ask and offer all our simple things to be done by others.
I vividly remember years ago when I and my wife decided to rise our children by ourselves. We know that there will be risks following. The risk of having less time for social activities because we need to spend more time at home rather than joining many club's activities. The risk of being with them during the weekend without being easy to go to some places we like. Nevertheless, what surprises us today is (its now almost 6 years since we made the decision) that there were so many things we could learn and unlearnt during all those time.
At least both of us knew how difficult it was and that now some of our character is visible to each of our kids. Now we see what does it mean by the words that say 'like father like son' (and its elaboratable to 'like mother like daughter') both in positive and negative sides.
Today, days after visiting the woman I mentioned earlier, her life's principles as told by the son, has marked its own line into mine, that I need to stand strongly to what I believe as a good and Godly principles to live my life. She, in her bed, touches a memorable mark to me.
The question now is, have you ever think that whatever you are doing now, it will make a mark into someone's life. Good or bad marks, others will decide.
Despite all this, I remember what David De Haan, the Director of RBC Ministry and the son of RBC's founder says below:
We don’t live unto ourselves
We’re part of one another
For good or ill we touch a life
Of sister, friend, and brother.
Make sure that all we do touch people's life amazingly.
Jakarta, April 2009
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